A Rush of Emotions

There are a lot of things on my mind currently, one of which is how few blog followers I have. How can I get more? Then the thought crosses my mind; why would anyone want to follow or even read my blog? I have no exciting life story, no fun diet, workout plan or adversity that I'm facing to write about in detail. No cross country road trip, innovative recipe, or new location to explore. I find solace in my blog, even peace. Sometimes I crave this blog to release the rush of emotions from my head. Often times, as soon as I sit down to type, I am at a loss. Recently, the different emotions that have been traveling through my veins are enough to cause that too familiar feeling of anxiety, a feeling that I thought had gone away for a long while. The typical stress from work, from feeling overwhelmed, and from facing change never seem to go away. Add on the stress of toxic and less toxic but still toxic relationships, of envy, jealousy, wonder, and awe. Of course there is happiness, joy, desire, and a constant powerful feeling of love that fills my heart to the brim. It's a lethal mix that can cause laughter or tears or both simultaneously.

In reality, when it comes down to it, the feeling I feel the most, the one that seems to overpower most of the other ones most of the time is luck. I am lucky and I am blessed to be where I am, to have what I have, to love who I love and to be loved. Many people live the fabulous life, but many don't. At the end of the day when my head hits the pillow I feel blessed and I say thank you. In the same moment I feel calm and I am brought back to the reality of my life and how genuinely blessed I actually am. Namaste.