A Day in the Life of Being Thoughtful

There are many times during the day when my mind enters overdrive. It seems to happen more often than not and it boggles my hyper little mind to realize that it's hard to turn off. I've been told many times that I am thoughtful, and I couldn't agree more- I am full of thoughts. Thoughts about people, thoughts about ideas, about theories, about the future. Endless thoughts. I think about things that don't even exist or never really happened. (At what point do I consider myself insane?!) I think about what other people say and I think about what other people think. Irrelevant thoughts cross my mind far too many times. Good thoughts, bad thoughts, crazy thoughts. Is this the way the mind works for everyone?

I have come to my own conclusion. At the fresh age of 25, I think the difference between the college graduate student and a real-world adult has taken full effect. I always knew the real world would be upon me someday, but as going back to school is no longer a realistic option, and thinking about my future career is one of my most common thoughts, the conversations I have, have changed. The colleagues I have are different, the relationship I'm in is new, my best friends are vastly spread out across the land of the free, and my need for independence is at an all time high. This is life. I am grateful every day for everything I have in my life and when I look around and add up all the little things, I learn that these are the biggest things of all and my gratitude is never ending. Luckily, that is a thought I enjoy having every morning as I wake up; "Thank you for another day, thank you for all the opportunities that lie ahead of me on this day. Today will be a good day."

Often times reality checks occur which is a moment in time where we stop and reflect on our lives and the exact moment we are in. In this crazy world it is easy to get swirled around by the ebb and flow of life, gossip, and media, but I try to focus on the little things a lot and appreciate everything I have on a daily basis. You can never take for granted the people in your life either, and for that reason I try my best to take time and remind the people closest to me that they are just that, and that there is a reason we are in each others lives. I believe in cliches and therefore I believe everything happens for a reason. In turn with my endless thoughts I have also learned to think on a more meaningful level. I think many conversations and special moments I have had with friends recently have been more powerful than I ever remember them being; again I think this is part of growing up and realizing what life is all about, while finding purpose in where I am. I hold on to these powerful feelings and find myself thinking about them quite often.

It is from these compelling feelings that the fuel within me ignites and my passion burns hotter and brighter. My life is defined not by the milestones I have crossed but by the sincerity in what I do everyday, in my ability and willingness to help others and to share my love with those closest to me. It is defined by the powerful, spiritual depth and authenticity in my relationships. It is defined by the reasons I hold in my heart for the way everything has happened. Although my mind is full of thoughts on a regular basis, I believe it is the fast pace of my heart beating, and my wheels turning, and my thoughts forming that remind me everyday that I am alive.