Endless Saturday Night Thoughts
The red candle is burning in the back of my room and here I am, laying comfortably in my big-girl bed, surrounded by a plethora of pillows and even a few stuffed animals, while being warmed by the lamp on my nightstand. It's just me and my somewhat trusty, slowly fading laptop. Sometimes that's all it takes to make me happy. Sometimes. Sometimes I would prefer not to be alone but I suppose right now is as good a time as any to update my blog. I have referred to this blog as my sanity, my stress reliever, and an electronic version of myself and my emotions. Whether it's a cheesy picture or a cliche quote that I've posted, I've posted them because I like them and they reflect who I am and what I like. Some of my friends say I have a unique personality and a fun taste in my interior, or exterior, decorations. Much of this is considered to be "so Luz" which in itself is quite original; an originality I am very proud of. This mixture of fashionista, apple-green love, and free spirit seem to define who I am. Maybe I can't hold an extremely intellectual conversation about politics or science with someone, but if we change the subject to fate, love, passion, or any of the feelings and emotions on the lateral subject, I could listen and talk for days. The deeper the conversation for me, the better, so it seems. I enjoy hearing other people's insights on life too, not on worldly issues.
Boredom and an aimlessly wandering mind don't usually provide me with comfortable feelings, but if someone was with me during the mind wandering, the conversation would be anything but ordinary. It would be spectacular and often is. As with my girlfriends, I enjoy the conversations involving fate and why things in our lives have happened the way they have. I know the Big Man has his plans for me and sometimes I love the little signs he shows me from time to time making me believe even more in fate and following the path he has laid out for me.
"I'm not an ethicist, or a philosopher, or an expert in any particular field... My work is human nature. Real life is really all I know." -Anna Quindlen. Life is about doing whatever it is that makes you happy, talking about whatever it is that's on your mind, and going wherever one's little heart desires. Life is not about money, brains, or vocabulary. It's about being true to yourself and letting people decide for themselves whether they like it or not- whether they chose to keep you in their lives or not. In a recent revelation I learned about myself that I can set my perfectionism aside and people will still like me for me. I have no one to impress- this is the Liz that I have always been and will always be. I am still learning things about myself everyday as I grow older and wiser. My quarter century mark lurks in the distance and I have a long list of things I am proud to have accomplished thus far. The bucket list is even longer, but I have even more time to check off those boxes. Although we never know what the future holds, I have learned to dance in the rain. My hopes and concerns about my future are not as important to me right now as picking out the perfect shade of green.
"You are the only person alive who has sole custody of your life. Your particular life. Your entire life... Not just the life of your mind, but the life of your heart." -Anna Quindlen. We each create our own destiny and control our own happiness. We can't blame others and although it is easy human nature to find fault with other people and to focus on their weaknesses, we need to be thankful everyday for the things that we have been given. I say my prayer of thanksgiving every night for all that I have in this world, I practice and remind myself of gratitude everyday in order to live a fuller life. "At night, I try to think of at least three things I'm grateful for that day- and I truly think that it helps when I wake up. I wake up and I smile and I say thank you. Thank you for another day." -Allyson S. We never know when life is going to run out. I take advice, words of wisdom, and experiences from other people and add them together with the number of reality checks I've had of my own. Together the calculations equal a passion for friends, for making people happy, for telling people how I truly feel in case another day to say these words never comes.
I will take these random, endless thoughts, add the rhythm of my own heart beat and a splash of the perfect shade of green to create an art all my own. I will add the inspiration of the people around me which will add a particular glow, I know it. A pinch of reason and belief, and a whole lot of love, with the combination of the passion I feel inside me, will create the combination of strength that will allow me follow the path of fate forever.
Boredom and an aimlessly wandering mind don't usually provide me with comfortable feelings, but if someone was with me during the mind wandering, the conversation would be anything but ordinary. It would be spectacular and often is. As with my girlfriends, I enjoy the conversations involving fate and why things in our lives have happened the way they have. I know the Big Man has his plans for me and sometimes I love the little signs he shows me from time to time making me believe even more in fate and following the path he has laid out for me.
"I'm not an ethicist, or a philosopher, or an expert in any particular field... My work is human nature. Real life is really all I know." -Anna Quindlen. Life is about doing whatever it is that makes you happy, talking about whatever it is that's on your mind, and going wherever one's little heart desires. Life is not about money, brains, or vocabulary. It's about being true to yourself and letting people decide for themselves whether they like it or not- whether they chose to keep you in their lives or not. In a recent revelation I learned about myself that I can set my perfectionism aside and people will still like me for me. I have no one to impress- this is the Liz that I have always been and will always be. I am still learning things about myself everyday as I grow older and wiser. My quarter century mark lurks in the distance and I have a long list of things I am proud to have accomplished thus far. The bucket list is even longer, but I have even more time to check off those boxes. Although we never know what the future holds, I have learned to dance in the rain. My hopes and concerns about my future are not as important to me right now as picking out the perfect shade of green.
"You are the only person alive who has sole custody of your life. Your particular life. Your entire life... Not just the life of your mind, but the life of your heart." -Anna Quindlen. We each create our own destiny and control our own happiness. We can't blame others and although it is easy human nature to find fault with other people and to focus on their weaknesses, we need to be thankful everyday for the things that we have been given. I say my prayer of thanksgiving every night for all that I have in this world, I practice and remind myself of gratitude everyday in order to live a fuller life. "At night, I try to think of at least three things I'm grateful for that day- and I truly think that it helps when I wake up. I wake up and I smile and I say thank you. Thank you for another day." -Allyson S. We never know when life is going to run out. I take advice, words of wisdom, and experiences from other people and add them together with the number of reality checks I've had of my own. Together the calculations equal a passion for friends, for making people happy, for telling people how I truly feel in case another day to say these words never comes.
I will take these random, endless thoughts, add the rhythm of my own heart beat and a splash of the perfect shade of green to create an art all my own. I will add the inspiration of the people around me which will add a particular glow, I know it. A pinch of reason and belief, and a whole lot of love, with the combination of the passion I feel inside me, will create the combination of strength that will allow me follow the path of fate forever.
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