I've Got Sunshine On a Cloudy Day

I don't know about you, but I will be welcoming 2010 with open arms. Wide open arms. I specifically remember my feelings towards ringing in 2009. I sat at home on winter break for five weeks, and dreaded the turn of the new year. I wanted to hang on to 2008 forever. 2008 meant I'd be forever 21, 2008 meant I'd stay in college forever, 2008 meant that the real world would hold on for just a little bit longer. But then it was time for 2009. I wasn't excited about this new year, I had grown up knowing that 2009 was an important year because it was the year I would graduate college. And come midnight on December 31st meant that my graduation date was that much closer, the real world was looming. I remember that New Year's Eve. It was one of my favorite. Everyone was home, and by everyone I mean all my friends from home were in one location. Although a few of us scattered for that particular night, we had been together for a joyous holiday season. We gathered again on t

This scene, the scene of me right here sitting on this big comfy couch typing and deleting and typing again seems like it could be a movie scene. My feet are up, my hood is up, the heat is up. There is a foot of snow outside, I'm beside the window where the white Christmas lights shine brightly, offering me a better view of this computer screen. Tomorrow I will be driving home for the holidays, another possible movie scene. I like being alone when I drive home. I actually look forward to it. It's some of the only alone time I get away from my computer, away from my cell phone and television. I plug in my ipod, put on my special playlist, and turn the volume to the point where I can't really hear myself sing along, which is probably a good thing. I do a lot of thinking in the car at this time. Thinking, singing, sometimes crying. And driving, of course I have to focus on my driving. But as I pack up my room and take down the decorations to bring home, I think, what is hom